publicly anyway. as i know its a bore, but i really needed to talk to someone, and since i dont have anyone to talk to, well thats what this blog is for.
ive had time to process my emotions and recent information. and ive decided that all in all, its better this way. knowing the truth. so many years of unanswered questions, unresolved feelings and simply no ending to the story. i can finally let my heart and my mind find some peace. maybe i can finaly move on. ive cried rivers of tears over him, and its time to stop mourning. it might not be the ending i wanted, or the ending we deserved, but an end is an end. its time i accepted it.