one of these days i swear ill get good at this lol. this is a tattoo i made this morning. i think it came out ok (of course it could be better)
but you cant get all that much detail on a sim tat anyway.
im not really happy about the way it looks small. seems kinda.. blurgy.
here it is with full saturation
looks much nicer on the back.
this is half saturation.
so i guess its ok. i need to practice more, but i hardly ever remember to mess with tatooinator lol. well if you want to try it out, here is the link
back in the days of sims 2, i did alot of sims stories. i dont really do them anymore (too lazy). i hadnt really thought about any of them much till today when i was talking to my daughter about one of them. then i realized.. the sims 2 site is gone now! so now so is all those stories. :(
including all my Jerry Simmer (which was terribly written but hella funny)
its kinda sad that i lost all those stories. what a shame :(
i suppose i should probably try doing new ones. especialy since we have pose player now. but i dunno...
i found this little flash game the other day and ive been addicted to it! its called ragdoll acheivment. you get a crash test dummy and an empty room. fill the room with bombs saws, and machine guns and blow that little bastard up.
i embedded it at the bottom of the blog, check it out :) fun shit
would be a terrible idea lol. how can he save the day, if all the bad things happen on land, and his powers only exist in the sea? who invented this guy anyway? what a lousy super hero. now, if say, you put Aquaman in the titantic, well then it might be a happier story. but he doesnt just sit around waiting for sinking ships, how depressing is that. what DOES aquaman do all day?
so i decided to fire up the ol steam and play skyrim for the first time in a long time (pc skyrim anyway, i was playing almost nonstop on the xbox while my computer was broken)
and found my character at the beginning of the skull or corruption quest. so i go thru the whole rigamoroll, and just as i drink the torpor and open up the magic portal thingy so me and erandur can go kick his ex buddies asses, the game crashes.
this pisses me off quite greatly, because i was almost done and now i gotta start over. so, ohwell, i go thru the whole things again, and AGAIN the game crashes.
im so flippin tables right now. ⌐ (°◘°)⌐ ≈ ┴─┴ rawr!
you know the type. always has to have the ultimate build, critizies you on everything you do or say because its 'wrong' and insults everyone who doesnt play the 'right' way.
you know what? fuck you. you people dont play games, you rape them. a game is meant to be enjoyed, and for some of us, is a way to relax. you guys, have to dominate, pick apart the game to its bones, and exploit it to find the most power for you. how is that fun? ga,es are supposed to be FUN.
if i want to use a pet that looks awesome but isnt the strongest pet in the game, SO FUCKING WHAT. im having FUN. i play game to enjoy them, not to conquer them!!
its you guys who are ruining the mmo community. and you are always the loudest, most judgmental, and obnoxious players in EVERY game.
you know what? why should developers even BOTHER making a storyline, interesting races, characters, classes, and whatnot? cause none of that matters to you people. only how OP you can get. so once again i wonder, WHY TF ARE YOU PLAYING THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE? leave the games to the people who just want to enjoy them. you sad little boys with fragile egos, only feel like a worthy human being when you can pvp virtual people. pathetic little shits.
whats with this fad lately? if you are not aware, lately people have been posting pics of themselves holding a sign, saying something like:
if this gets 1 million likes my dad will buy me a puppy!
ok the first one i saw might have been.. almost amusing, but really? there is like thousands of these stupid things now.
'like this status and my gf will blow me'
omfg, GO AWAY.
if i like your status will you go fuck yourself?
was curious earlier, as to what exactly 'Hispaniola' refered to. since we didnt really study that in school in any kind of way, i had no idea. i thought maybe it had something to do with some empire the spanish may have controlled.
well as it turns out (according to my daughter's googling skills)that 'Hispaniola' refers to the area of the Caribbean containing Haiti and the Dominican Republic. so. huh, how bout that. so, as it turns out, Puerto Ricans, Mexicans, Spaniards, and other latino people. arent actualy 'Hispanic'. but somehow Haitians ARE. just thougt it was kinda interesting.
know what else i find interesting? i found out what Charlie Sheen's real name is. Its Carlos Estaves. i always knew Emilio Estaves was his brother, so i dunno why i found it so surprising. it just kinda made me go 'wow neat'
and please no one get offended by this post. i am not hating on Spanish people, i love Spanish people. i just wonder about weird things sometimes.
i really need to get out of the house. i just wish there was someplace to go. and even if there was, i cant drag all the kids along with me -_-
seems like im jsut destined to be a shut in, staring at the internet waiting for it to do something.
WAAA I NEED A LIFE!!
publicly anyway. as i know its a bore, but i really needed to talk to someone, and since i dont have anyone to talk to, well thats what this blog is for.
ive had time to process my emotions and recent information. and ive decided that all in all, its better this way. knowing the truth. so many years of unanswered questions, unresolved feelings and simply no ending to the story. i can finally let my heart and my mind find some peace. maybe i can finaly move on. ive cried rivers of tears over him, and its time to stop mourning. it might not be the ending i wanted, or the ending we deserved, but an end is an end. its time i accepted it.
seems like every site these days doesnt recognise my password. there are only so many i use, and it doesnt recognise any of them. so i got and reset my password, and sure enough, it STILL doesnt recognise the password. UH STUPID FUCKS I JUST CHANGED IT, I KNOW this is what it is!!!
and EA, thank you SO much for linking all your stupid bullshit with origin. cause i forgot my origin password and had to change it, so now EVERYTHING i am a member of that is affliated with ea, comes up with a wrong password messege... -_- assholes
been getting reacquainted with my Ovevil family and things are going well. finaly built them a house that doesnt totaly suck. and i was looking at my studio and noticed Alina Gravedigger sitting there waiting for me. she was one of the heiresses from my Gravedigger legacy i played on my bf's pc. she was one of my favorite sims of all time. so i decided to download her, and hook her up with my Ovevil heir :D
they hit it off instantly. 10/10 attraction, and they are all hearts and floaty shit. hes evil, shes crazy. hes a vampire, shes a supernatural fan. and she has one of the hidden traits the family needs.
they have succeeded in distracting me pretty well for the majority of the day :)
it really helps when you can get your mind off shit for a while. then when you come back to it (cause crazy ppl like me always doo) it doesnt seem as bad as before
i just cant handle it.. the regret, the heartache and the pain. they say talking about your problems makes them better. well bull fuckin shit. talking about the past only made it worse. revealing truths that were perhaps better left unknown. we had already moved on but now the wounds are fresh again and ..somehow WORSE. its a good thing i bought 2 bottles of wine because i think im going to be loaded for a while...
once upon a time there was a girl of about 18. she worked in the mall giving random strangers surveys. one day as she was hanging around outside smoking, she saw a group of guys approach. they were laughing and goofing around and at first didnt seem like anything special.
untill she saw him.
he looked at her and smiled and her heart melted instantly. it was like one of those cheesy romance movies that never happens in real life.
the 2 never spoke to one another but exchanged glances. the boys' bus arrived and they left the mall doorway and headed outside. one boy stopped and offered the girl his number,
'actualy, i think i really like your friend' she said. referring to the boy whos eyes met hers. he laughed, and gave her his friends number.
it didnt take long for both the girl and the guy to realize they were in love., they talked on the phone for weeks but she could not see him; he was in a juvenile center for troubled boys. there was no way they could be together.
one day they decided they were goin to be together no matter what. and hatched a plan to escape.
the girl arranged for a friend to drive to a gas station nearby the school where her love would meet them. and he did.
he escaped through the woods and got into the car and they escaped together.
as long as they were together nothing on earth could harm them. spent every moment together, blissfully entwined in each others arms. they slept in motels or abandoned house,s where they could find. it didnt really matter WHERE they were. they were happy just being together.
one morning they watched the sun come up, and he asked her to marry him. she acpeted. she swore she would spend the rest of her life with him.
they soon found a friend to stay with who would hide them out for a while. they sort of had a home of their own, and good friends there. it seemed like everything was perfect.
but down the road was the boy's jealous ex girlfriend. who apparently decided she didnt like to see the happy couple.. and did something about it.
one morning the girl was awakened to furious pounding on the front door. it was the police. they had found him, and they dragged him from the house while she howled in pain. 'no no dont take him away please!!'
and left her there, alone.
for weeks she couldnt eat or sleep. she became a chain smoker, sitting on the porch all day, lighting smoke after smoke, looking into the distance hoping, hoping he was coming home. but he never did.
she went to his court date and heard the judge sentence him to 1-3 years. she was devastated. 'wait for me' the boy pleaded. 'i love you, and i will come back for you'
and she did wait. and wait. and wait. sitting on the deck, staring into the distance.. hoping he would walk into her life once more. the time wasnt kind to her emotional state. nor his.
her roomate, the once thought friend who had taken them in, poisoned her mind with lies and treachery. she told the girl her love would soon be home! go out and wait for him! she she did, over and over, and he never came. She told her he called! you should wait by the phone he going to call back! but again, the girl was left with crushed hope, and shattered heart. she began to grow cold. she grew tired of being jerked around. so she packed up her shit and left.
unbeknownst to the girl, the boy had actualy been released, and was on his way home to her. but when he arrived, she was not there. she had moved in with an old friend from high school. she sent the boy a letter telling him she had moved... but since he had been released already, he never received this letter.
he went crazy when he returned home and did not find her.
he followed her to her friends house, but just missed her there too. she had already been kicked out.
she moved in with another friend. she managed to receive a letter from her love. an angry letter. the girl mistakes the letter for a break up letter, and goes insane. she trashes the apartment, breaks everything and rolls up in a screaming ball on the floor sobbing. the cops are called, and she is carried away.
the boy just misses her there too. hes hot on her trail all this time, but the cops are on HIS. hes soon apprehended, and sent back for another 6 years.
a this time the girl knew nothing about him being home, or tracking her down. she knew NOTHING. she blundered around blind in her own stupidity while her one tru love tried his best to find her. and ended up going back to prison for even longer BECAUSE OF HER.
for years and years she dreamt of this love she lost. no other man came close to he did in her heart, and no man ever will.
she eventually settled down, had a family, moved on. but he was always there, in her soul. always in the back of her mind. always wondering what happened to him? where did he go? will i ever see him again?
i need to try not to dwell too much on the past and mistakes ive made. whats done is done, no matter how tragic.
perhaps one day ill tell the tale, but not today. thank you everyone who lent an ear and a kind word
so many bad decisions there is no way to accurately measure how severely i fucked up my own life. and not just mine, i fucked up other people's lives too. heartache after heartache. i blunder thru life like a bull in a china shop, smashing everything in my path. sure the bull doesnt want to break anything, but is too stupid are careless not to.
there arent even words to express the grief in my heart. so many years wasted. lives torn apart. mistake after mistake after mistake.
i really am better off in the sims. where the lives i ruin dont exist.
the house is never right. i have rebuilt it over and over and i never seem to be happy with it. i think maybe im trying too hard. i wonder if its even worth it anymore. EA changed the trait genetics so supernaturals dont even stack.. it kinda makes my whole legacy null an void.
why cant i let go of this family?