Showing posts from May, 2011

just want to say

thank you to everyone for your support and well wishes during this time. it has helped and i am very grateful. im trying to put it behind me now and look forward. my new kittens helps alot. who can be sad when you have a cute roly poly kitten to play with?

ive dealt with my issues with my dad long ago. as i mentioned i had a rough childhood. me brother and i were neglected, beaten, mostly by our first stepmother, but there was always the whippings with the belt when dad came home. thats how i grew up. when i was 12 he sent me away to 'crazy camp'. basicaly, a  mental home for adolescents because i was depressed and suicidal. after 8 months in that place, he and my stepmother sorta dissapeared.. apparently they didnt want me anymore, so i went to live with my mother. i was so angry and resentful toward my father for many years after that. we never spoke again. i did not invite him to my wedding, but i made sure he knew about it.

when my first child was born tho, he suddenly rea…

not much of my family left now

i got a phone call yesterday from my stepmother. my father passed away. last time i talked to him, he said his cancer was n remission, was pretty much completely gone. and then i hear this news.. its somewhat shocking to say the least..
obviously i was very upset, but now im just kinda numb i guess. so many deaths in my family recently.. first my little brother, then my great uncle (who was old as fuck so it wasnt a shock) my aunt Marie died of pneumonia just about a month ago and now my dad. my dad and my little brother were more or less all i had growing up. now i have nothing. well i hate my bile spitting cobra of a mother..who was OH so sympathetic.. then ;ast night we had a minor tornado (which i am freekin terrified of) and it knocked out the internet and tore down half of the tree out back.. completely destroying our back deck AND the porch swing my dad gave me..

a sence of truimph... but also sadness

whenever i finish a good book i am always conflicted. on one hand i feel the joy and excitement of the great story brought to its climax. on the other hand, there is the depressing thought that once i turn those last few pages... its over. my journey with these characters is done, and i feel a sense of loss.

i love a good book, but its so depressing when its over lol

new kitteh

a neighbor was giving away kittens. not just any kittens. poly-dactyl kittens! i couldnt resist. here is our yet-to-be-named little feller

mah new pet

his name is Spike. isnt he cute??

was i wrong?

i do try to be unbiased in my desicion making.. try to see things from both points of view before i react.. but perhaps sometimes i let emotion get in the way a little.

last night a guildy, lets call him bob. bob is usualy a pretty arrogant and bossy individual. well last night he seems to be in a foul mood. another guildie says something stupid in chat like 'i love boobies'. of course the female members werent entirely thrilled (myself included) and one female member in particular,, lets call her jan, saied somthing to the effect of 'im not gay so no i dont love boobies'.

so bob, who wasnt even really a part of the boobies conversation, pops in with 'well get a mastectomy then' 0_0
her husband immediately says 'um.. no'
but jan and i were particular annoyed by this statement. i said, 'just because we arent obsessed with our own bodyparts doesnt mean we should hack them off.' at this point my bf chanced the subject before it got ugly.

so later …

just testing

been getting reports of external links to Simpletons not working properly. test

ok that wierd

i seem to have lost a post somehow. dunno if it was due to the blogger weirdness going on or if it was somehow deleted.. well whatever. hopefully no more posts dissapear

i dont think you understand who your dealing with

just in case you didnt get my little message on Simpletons.

Listen here, you little fucktard. You are not welcome here, so take your childish bullcrap elsewhere. Did you think i was somehow shocked and horrified by pictures of nude women? Ive seen a thousand pictures like that, and worse. Did you think telling my users to jump naked off a cliff would strike fear into our hearts? It only demonstrates how PATHETIC you are. Stay off my forum, dipshit. This is not EA. i can AND WILL ban your ass. And let me remind you once again how FAIL you are. You dont scare me, you dont threaten me. Your tiresome. All you did was give me work to do. Why dont you go find some dolls to play with, like a good little dickless boy, and leave the adults to talk in peace.

 getting the picture yet, jackass? Im not a big souless corporation. i actualy MODERATE my websites.

this is fkin awesome

US holds photos of slain bin Laden, weighs release AFP – Pakistani boys collect debris at the site of the crashed helicopter outside the hideout of Al-Qaeda leader …
By ADAM GOLDMAN and KIMBERLY DOZIER, Associated Press Adam Goldman And Kimberly Dozier, Associated Press – 1 hr 39 mins ago WASHINGTON – U.S. officials weighed the pros and cons of releasing secret video and photos of Osama bin Laden, killed with a precision shot above his left eye, as fresh details emerged Tuesday of an audacious American raid that netted potentially crucial al-Qaida records as well as the body of the global terrorist leader.
President Barack Obama is going to ground zero in New York to mark the milestone and remember the dead of 9/11.
White House counterterrorism adviser John Brennan said the U.S. already was scouring items seized in the raid — said to include hard drives, DVD's, documents and more that might tip U.S. intelligence to al-Qaida's opera…