literaly.. i havent felt like this since i was 19 and suffering from that severe anxiety ulcer. i think its back. why would my ulcer come back after all these years? i dont think im under an extreme amount of duress... at least not consciously.. wth is going on? i dont want to bother going to a doctor... i see enough friggin doctors with my kids. and im really not a doctor person. i usualy do a better job diagnosing myself anyway. doctors are idiots. all they are good for is performing operations and prescribing pills. i havent found one YET who actualy gave a shit about somebody. well, except my kids old pediatrician. shes was great.
why cant you get an adult doctor like that? who remebers you, knows your issues, cares about your welfare.. nobody gives a crap about you when your an adult. they think beacuse your old enough to take care of yourself, that your just on your own.
whos idea was this anyway? human beings are social creatures. we are designed to live in small groups, and help each other survive. this modern world is so cold and empty. everyone is alone. its 'fuck you' attitude that everyone has. if your not me, why should i give a shit? but ive wandered off the point, as i tend to do.
the point is, i feel like crap, has for like a week now, and i have NO idea why... and its starting to worry me :/