Tuesday, February 22, 2011

my anxiety is killing me

literaly.. i havent felt like this since i was 19 and suffering from that severe anxiety ulcer. i think its back. why would my ulcer come back after all these years? i dont think im under an extreme amount of duress... at least not consciously.. wth is going on? i dont want to bother going to a doctor... i see enough friggin doctors with my kids. and im really not a doctor person. i usualy do a better job diagnosing myself anyway. doctors are idiots. all they are good for is performing operations and prescribing pills. i havent found one YET who actualy gave a shit about somebody. well, except my kids old pediatrician. shes was great.
why cant you get an adult doctor like that? who remebers you, knows your issues, cares about your welfare.. nobody gives a crap about you when your an adult. they think beacuse your old enough to take care of yourself, that your just on your own.
whos idea was this anyway? human beings are social creatures. we are designed to live in small groups, and help each other survive. this modern world is so cold and empty. everyone is alone. its 'fuck you' attitude that everyone has. if your not me, why should i give a shit? but ive wandered off the point, as i tend to do.
the point is, i feel like crap, has for like a week now, and i have NO idea why... and its starting to worry me :/

11 comments:

  1. That's so true.

    I've had 5 doctors at my current surgery and none of them seem to care about their patients at all. It's like talking to a brick wall, I usually have to just get on with it because they're all so useless.

    I hope you feel better soon and you manage to figure out what it is!

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  2. Zeri, I really hope you feel better soon. I can only relate somewhat to the non-caring doctor problem -- I had one that was the most arrogant jerk it has been my misfortune to meet, didn't want to answer any questions, couldn't tell him a damn thing. He prescribed me 'medication' that made my situation SO much worse...I almost wish I'd sued the bastard. But all of the other doctors I've had have been great and, crazy as it sounds, actually welcomed my boatloads of questions (particularly the doctor that fixed the problem that jerk doctor caused, and the doc I saw for my own ulcer problem). I'm probably just really really lucky - I doubt if it's a regional thing or anything like that. Crack doctors are unfortunately everywhere...

    If you DO end up going to see the doctor, I hope and pray you get a caring, competent one that treats you with the dignity and respect you deserve. Please please take care of yourself as much as you can in the meantime Zeri.

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  3. thanx cel :)
    im on medicaid, so i dunno about getting quality health care.. these docs are more than likley not the cream of the crop. BUT its nice to know i can at least GET health care if i do get sick. im hoping that whatever this is goes away within a week or two.. otherwise i will have to start looking into it.

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  4. Sorry not been around. I am really sick. I hope you get feelin better. Love yah my friend. Tell all hi for me. I don't feel up tp typing no more ATM. HUGS

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  5. Well, if It's any good news, my Mom had a D.O. (Dr. Varidan... or Veridan, can't quite remember now..) and he was amazing to me and my mom, he diagnosed our ADD (my ADHD, hehe, I'm a hyperactive teenager >:D), our OCD, and helped to treat and better manage my Mom's anxiety attacks, depression, AND high blood pressure (with prescriptions that helped tremendously, I might add). He really actually cared, and remembered me, and my mother every time we walked into his office, and was EXTREMELY nice! Sadly, he died in a plane crash years ago when I was still a kid (ookay, not THAT long ago..). But he was the ONLY amazing doctor I've ever come across (though, I'm only 14, so that's not saying THAT much...). My mom always is trying to find a D.O. because apparently she likes them better than regular M.D's. Don't know from your point of view, as I don't have to pay the bills, lmao.

    Anyways, hope you get to feeling better Zeri (...and I'm not only saying that because I want an Ovevil update either!!) and really hope it's nothing serious!!! :)

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  6. Yeah doctors suck ass these days. I remember before I was diagnosed with a problem with absorbing vitamin B12 all I seemed to get from most doctors was ''Well you're fat so that can make you tired'', ''what have you been eating?, do you exercise?''.

    Everything isn't about my weight you skinny fucks lol

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  7. oh yeah the whole 'all your problems are caused by you being fat' people. they arent willing to look even remotely beyond that because they have already made up their mind that THAT is what it is?

    and i have been thinking about getting back to the Ovevils very soon. i didnt know i had any readers ^_^

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  8. Eh, that's what all the M.D.'s tell my mom these day's "You need to start walking daily, because all of your high blood pressure and blah blah blah blah blah is caused by your weight issues." ....she has NO weight issues, thank you very much!! >:| So I agree with you guys there!!^

    And heck yeah! You're the reason I just bought late night a few days ago... for the VAMPIRES! O.O ahaha. :D

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  9. My wife was very sick and needed some stuff. You'd think I was asking too much, but everyone else in her condition got what I wanted. It seems her insurance really bites. (I hope that was vague enough). The ulcer thing should not be ignored, they just stick a hose here (and there) and fix it pretty quick.

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  10. Eh, that's what all the M.D.'s tell my mom these day's "You need to start walking daily, because all of your high blood pressure and blah blah blah blah blah is caused by your weight issues." ....she has NO weight issues, thank you very much!! >:| So I agree with you guys there!!^

    And heck yeah! You're the reason I just bought late night a few days ago... for the VAMPIRES! O.O ahaha. :D

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  11. Well, if It's any good news, my Mom had a D.O. (Dr. Varidan... or Veridan, can't quite remember now..) and he was amazing to me and my mom, he diagnosed our ADD (my ADHD, hehe, I'm a hyperactive teenager >:D), our OCD, and helped to treat and better manage my Mom's anxiety attacks, depression, AND high blood pressure (with prescriptions that helped tremendously, I might add). He really actually cared, and remembered me, and my mother every time we walked into his office, and was EXTREMELY nice! Sadly, he died in a plane crash years ago when I was still a kid (ookay, not THAT long ago..). But he was the ONLY amazing doctor I've ever come across (though, I'm only 14, so that's not saying THAT much...). My mom always is trying to find a D.O. because apparently she likes them better than regular M.D's. Don't know from your point of view, as I don't have to pay the bills, lmao.

    Anyways, hope you get to feeling better Zeri (...and I'm not only saying that because I want an Ovevil update either!!) and really hope it's nothing serious!!! :)

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