fucking moods are all over the place lately

im not quite sure why. i think maybe my mirena is running out of hormones or something. cause this is like.. well like i used to be.
as one therapist put it 'emotionally insane'
i should probably call somebody but well the old anxiety thing prevents me from doing THAT.
its not so bad tho. at least i havent freaked out on anyone yet. im just rapid cycling. for a few years now ive been more or less stable, with regular high/low cycles.
lets just hope the rage stays far away

i sure dont need to deal with that shit ever again