so sick of my life

wish i could just change my name and disappear. if i didnt have kids, i totaly would. wouldnt be the first time (well i never changed my name) but im good at disappearing.
i just dont even know why i wake up every day. same ol shit over and over. nothing changes, nothing improves just mediocrity. i need passion, i need excitement.. and im tired of hiding in video games all day because my life is too depressing to look at.